It Feels Weird to Talk to You

Maybe I was so angry for not having the respond that I expected. I always thought that you will get what you give, and hell I am sure already gave a lot, also I know I tell people about what I need to make me feel better, but I don’t know. I really don’t understand why people just walk away for what you needed the most.

Maybe I was so angry that people I cared the most didn’t value our relationship the same as I did. People see me as a responsible person so I won’t do something reckless, and yes I am, but gosh I wish I was one, so people don’t always sure that there is any tomorrows for us. I wish I could leave so they could be grateful that they still have time with me and make the most out of it. But no, they are not. Maybe I was so angry to myself that I feel worthless, but I am still here today wondering what did I miss, what should I do, and why hurting myself is not even in my thought.


By angry, I also mean sad. So yeah I am feeling that a lot.